The Day I Found Out I Had Breast Cancer
两个小孩子，一个大家门的移动，而且哦，顺便说一下，你有乳腺癌。HealthCentral的Sabrina Skiles真实地了解她从未见过的诊断。
谁知道五words would alter our lives forever.
In early August of last year, I felt a small lump in my right breast. I wish I could say I do regular self-breast exams, but you caught me: #guilty. I don’t—or at least, I didn’t. I was just sitting outside on our porch swing in Houston with my husband. Both boys were napping and we were catching up on all the things happening in our lives. I randomly felt my right breast, which I know sounds weird, y’all. But when you’ve breastfed two kids—one for 12 months and one for four months—your breasts go through a lot. And sometimes, you just feel them when you remember.
What I felt wasn’t just my breast. It was a lump. “That doesn’t feel right, right?” I said to my husband, turning so he could feel it, too.
“是的，那不觉得好，”他说。“你应该被检查出来。”所以我打电话给我的ob，我们安排了第二天的乳房xamxcogram。他们最终做了一个超声波，这是一件好事，因为他们还发现淋巴结上的较小的“可疑”点。然后他们做了活组织检查。
It was Friday, August 16, 2019—my 35th birthday.
The next Monday, I got the call I had been waiting for. (Who knew you could hope for and dread something simultaneously?) Both boys were at school. The house was as calm as it ever was. Now when I look back on that time, it was literally the calm before the storm.
“能打扰你几分钟吗？”我的生活从未如此，因为这五个字从医生的嘴里出来了。
我记得和她一起挂起来，然后将我的眼睛打出来。泪水。这么多泪水，你们都是。我打电话给我的丈夫。“克里斯，这是癌症，”我告诉他。
I sat on the chair in our living room with tears pouring down my face until Chris got home from the office. It was probably 20 minutes. He told me later that he’d dropped everything he was doing and ran all the way to his car.
我的心疼。这对我的丈夫伤害了。这对我的两个年轻男孩而受伤。我的家人感到伤害。我的心对我伤了。
We Will Get Through This Together
This wasn’t exactly how I’d planned to celebrate my 35th birthday. My family and I were in the middle of one of the biggest changes in our lives. My husband had just accepted a new job in Denver, Colorado, and we were supposed to be packing up the house in Houston and getting ready to start a new chapter. Cancer was not even a thought on the horizon.
有一个清单，原因可能有乳腺癌风险。我不打勾任何这些盒子。我很健康。没有家族史。我有遗传测试，我不携带BRCA基因突变。我不吸烟。我很少喝酒。但这并不是真的让我感觉更好，对你说实话。我还有癌症。
I was diagnosed with浸润导管癌，2年级，IIA阶段。Hr / ER积极，她的2个负面。（这是一个满嘴？）我8月29日患有一块肿块切除术，用七个淋巴结去除乳房的肿瘤。我目前正在进行化疗。
About two weeks after my diagnosis, the anger started to set in. I remember telling Chris, “I’m so heartbroken and I’m so pissed.” He hugged me and wiped away more tears. “We will get through this together,” he said. I’ve carried that phrase with me since then.
I also pray a lot. But still, I am confused. And mad. The mental part of this cancer life is just as hard as the physical part, if not harder. It is something that I am still struggling with 130 days later. I am scheduled to talk with a therapist this month. That is the earliest they could see a new patient. Go figure.
My New Reality
随着明显的问题（what happens now?),其他几个人突然闪过我的脑海,当我被诊断ed with breast cancer. Like有另一个宝宝怎么样？Don’t get me wrong, my husband and I are so incredibly blessed with our two happy and healthy boys. Whenever the topic of another kid came up, we’d say, “OK, maybe one day soon.” We never put a timeline on it, we just thought it might happen in a year or two. Now, that decision has been taken away from me.
还，what about my psoriasis?After living with psoriasis for more than 20 years, I was at the point where my chronic disease was being managed by medication and in remission. Finally. I could feel my skin again where my psoriasis patches used to be. But the doctors told me I’d have to stop all my meds because of my breast cancer diagnosis. What was going to happen? Would it flare again? Was it going to be worse? No one could say for sure.
You Are Not Alone
我正在分享这不是为了怜悯，而是提醒你的身体。如果您担心某事如果你有密集的乳房，这使得在乳房X光线照片上更难看出，询问an annual MRI or ultrasound plus mammogram to improve detection.
I’m sharing my story because, honestly, it feels weird not talking about it. I’m sharing it because I don’t want others to feel like they’re the only ones.8人中有一个女性将在她生命中的某些时候得到乳腺癌. If you’ve been diagnosed, know you’re not alone. I feel you. I’m there with you. It’s hard. It’s freakin’ terrifying. It’s overwhelming. And nerve wracking. But you are not alone.
Stay tuned for my next post on the day I found out I needed chemo. I share the good, bad, and ugly! Let’s fight this together.
